Words for Dad

A cny without my dad. I never ever have imagine that and i need to face it right now. Everything had changed. Family bonding time no longer four of us. These make me so want to turn back time. I really miss him but i know he is always here protecting us silently. I hope he is doing well up there and meet alot of new friends and be a cute angel. This cny doesnt mean much to me. I dont care whether i enjoy it or wasted it. I always feel grateful to be your daughter and i just want everyone to be happy just like before. Dad, instead of wishing you hcny. I rather said : "Thank you for everything you gave, without you i cant become who im now, im not a daughter that make you proud but im proud to be your daughter honestly, the moment we collect is the precious of my life, i will live stronger to not making you worry up there, i love you and i will miss you forever".

More than important

Gathering from time to time were really precious. We couldnt see each other for quite some time and we end up having fun just like we missed those days. But really tired after 4.5% of alcohol i feel like freezing there dont feel like moving anymore. Anyway, Family and Relatives. More than important.

Life throughout Life

Last time i didnt even imagine how's my life after i graduated. Work like a slave? Just for money? Be a humbly worker follow instruction blindly? Heh. Now i choosen a job that some people may have some misconception towards it. I dont care this is my choice. I appreciate those supports and it really mean to me. I can tell you i didnt regret after making this decision and as long as i found happiness through this. For me happiness is almost everything. We stick at work most of the time. We face the colleagues more than our parents. The process is like we are brewing coffee. I learn from the senior. We can share thoughts and whatever lame jokes. Its just so BALANCE. Thanks for the opportunity we being together like a team. We produced our very own drama "Incredible Storybook". And what most interesting. Have fun like a kids. There are such a precious from god. There are like angels eventhough some of them behave like little devil. I wouldnt believe i can cope so well with the kids nowadays. Thats why i said i couldnt imagine this is my job right now. Work with the kids = Play like a kid. I cant stop grinning when im typing all these. I missed Cayden a lot. Whenever i see his belonging left behind, his name, his epic drawing.. Why he couldnt stay until year end. Anyway life still goes on till we meet again. Sometime being apart doesnt change the primeval intention. When i first join i look over the kids who are going to graduate this year soon. So glad that they are hanging up to standard 1. I believe they will have bright future because all of them are smart. Just need to put more effort and most important. Have fun on primary school life. It will be more interesting than they have ever imagine. There are gonna be missed!  Good Luck and Bright Future ahead! I know it is too early to write all these but yes i just feel the time passed too fast. And we will grow older day by day. Hmm stop saying those negative words. Okay. Time to bed. The end.

Life still goes on

Hi!! And im back for this world. Just feel like typing something and jot down my sudden thought. I just realized its been years. 2 years until now im back with a total different feeling towards blogging. Well i couldnt say its blogging because it rather looks like a diary. A private diary that no ones know. Well something happen and something change but the world is just the same. Im a tough girl i know no one will understand us more than ourselves. A huge stone was on me. A disaster that no one can control. Yet i choose to be strong as i promised. Im not a happy go lucky girl but i believe everyone deserve to be happy. I love my dad and i know he will always be with us. His soul and spirit will never gone. I regretted in many reason thousands of apologize to him who i never even show my love enough. Im thankful he bring me into this world and let me experience so much and be who i am now. A girl with lots of fun around. I wish we can meet maybe..

#wishisjustawish #loveyoudaddy

Awful Society.

2/19. The first time ever that im yelling in the inside:"I couldn't take it anymoreeee". Yeshh. For the very first time. at work. as i said. i aint there to please u. Even u r dat big deal dat greatful. i don't please u mean i won't. Blaming me for things i never did it wrongly. Don't ever be dat typical type of groupie. lol. Being different faces all the time. Goshh u gotta stop all these. Today feeling undescribable disappointed. Very very upset yea u. n wat. U let met down but i will got myself up. No more pleasing. Cause u really sucks.

N sometimes. We just nid smtg warm. Same day. Same time. When i've got trouble. Who really help out. Who really cares. It shows straight. right in front of us. These people. They r just kinda heart warming. i just realised. my bad bad day. is actually not dat bad. Every little moment. Those little  things. So kind of u. Appreciated. Really.

And I'm gonna erase this day. Ive been mad. been upset. been tears down. been looking back and questioning myself. realising somethings.... wat an awful society.

Looking back for now. This reminds me of the Tarot. wat it told me keep on happening. Not to convince myself the Tarot thingy is superb accurate. But somehow. it really mean somethings. Might not be a Bingo. But it teached us to look things at different perspective. It did show this way. But actually it just want u to try the other way round.

Try it!!

#stopthoseconfusingyettryingtoconvincepeople'stheories

Byeee.

Stupid Hangover.

Had my 2nd hangover in my whole lifetime. can't imagine i had beer and wine at the same time continuously three places. nahh. not to showing off. I'm not a good drinker dat i though i m. I'm fast to go dizzy n start to talk as many as i could. i just wanna talk. Aint doing ntg wrong. luckily. I still noe wat exactly m i doing. but wat he does to me. still made me feel weird again. it just made thing worst. and this time. is not my assumption. don't treat me this good. SO sry. i don't need those care. pls keep it for others. Whats happen there just stay there. Hangover can b Great feelinggg. Can b suffering too. Everytime I'm regret for wat i did when I'm just pouring out everything i can pour. Dat just torturing me!! Till this morning. still feeling dizzy. But look. still i can write things out. lol. ntg, Just feels like writing. n get it erased. Performance ltr. Can i just ditch it?! Plssss. I'm not well.

P.s this is just my random completion for the stupid hangover thingy. Just leave it here. Not gonna #flashback again :)

Challenge made improvement.

Hi life. Just passed by a very casual company one day trip in Penang ytd. the marked 24 Jan 2014. Out from Sunrise to Sunset. At the same time. watched both of them. rise and goes down again. What a day. Dat Great feelingss!! I can tell dat they r awesome ppl. Even somehow we might not agree wif some unacceptable attitudes. still. we r collegues. we spent time tgt almost half of our day. Dats not easy to cope with. So b sure to avoid those stuppid gossipps n killing assumption.

And what. my first ever company annual dinner is comingg. tonite :| General meeting is cominggg. right on next Mon :| Such a formal thingy dat made me feel little bit of worries. instead of feeling any excited about it. Sort of unexpected stuff will happen. Rules r changing. hmmph. Even im not any vvip at all. still. im qualified to voice out wat i feel during the damn meeting. right right?!

Besides. Im feeling alott better day by day. Controlling own mind is not dat easy. It takes times. it takes courages. Yet somehow we may find out who noe us well n who doesnt. Her. She never fail to give me strong advice. which i nid somone just to b straight to the point wif me. no hesitate. no struggling there. Just correct me if im wrong. Just screw me back when i screw u. haa. Some good friends mayb we r close enough. bt when one have problem. they just comfort u wif u wat want to listen. n dat tells a different stories. Good friends. Can b categorized too huh :D

Some of th'em. can just simply made my day. through their words to me. Will digest th'em. Never meet so often. but will Appreciate it well !! :) 

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