Stupid Hangover.

Had my 2nd hangover in my whole lifetime. can't imagine i had beer and wine at the same time continuously three places. nahh. not to showing off. I'm not a good drinker dat i though i m. I'm fast to go dizzy n start to talk as many as i could. i just wanna talk. Aint doing ntg wrong. luckily. I still noe wat exactly m i doing. but wat he does to me. still made me feel weird again. it just made thing worst. and this time. is not my assumption. don't treat me this good. SO sry. i don't need those care. pls keep it for others. Whats happen there just stay there. Hangover can b Great feelinggg. Can b suffering too. Everytime I'm regret for wat i did when I'm just pouring out everything i can pour. Dat just torturing me!! Till this morning. still feeling dizzy. But look. still i can write things out. lol. ntg, Just feels like writing. n get it erased. Performance ltr. Can i just ditch it?! Plssss. I'm not well.

P.s this is just my random completion for the stupid hangover thingy. Just leave it here. Not gonna #flashback again :)

Challenge made improvement.

Hi life. Just passed by a very casual company one day trip in Penang ytd. the marked 24 Jan 2014. Out from Sunrise to Sunset. At the same time. watched both of them. rise and goes down again. What a day. Dat Great feelingss!! I can tell dat they r awesome ppl. Even somehow we might not agree wif some unacceptable attitudes. still. we r collegues. we spent time tgt almost half of our day. Dats not easy to cope with. So b sure to avoid those stuppid gossipps n killing assumption.

And what. my first ever company annual dinner is comingg. tonite :| General meeting is cominggg. right on next Mon :| Such a formal thingy dat made me feel little bit of worries. instead of feeling any excited about it. Sort of unexpected stuff will happen. Rules r changing. hmmph. Even im not any vvip at all. still. im qualified to voice out wat i feel during the damn meeting. right right?!

Besides. Im feeling alott better day by day. Controlling own mind is not dat easy. It takes times. it takes courages. Yet somehow we may find out who noe us well n who doesnt. Her. She never fail to give me strong advice. which i nid somone just to b straight to the point wif me. no hesitate. no struggling there. Just correct me if im wrong. Just screw me back when i screw u. haa. Some good friends mayb we r close enough. bt when one have problem. they just comfort u wif u wat want to listen. n dat tells a different stories. Good friends. Can b categorized too huh :D

Some of th'em. can just simply made my day. through their words to me. Will digest th'em. Never meet so often. but will Appreciate it well !! :) 

在失去你的風景裡面 你卻佔據了每一條街
一步步曾經 一步步想念 在腳下蔓延
在充滿你的回憶裡面 我獨自流浪海角天邊
一步步走過 當時心願

步步- mayday

Tactful Sunday

Life is hard. Y made it harder. Sometimes. I just couldn't tell someone of everything. Something dat might can't b told right out. as its just not things dat can b share around. It made ppl feel weird. it just ruin things around. These days. i have times of hard feelings. I care. I mind. I very mind. Over taken care on something made things worst. n let myself down for superb silly reason. Its true dat hurts made us grow wit. bt continue being hurt. hurt. n hurt. wat u name urself is totally insane. 

I can accept it as a truth. I really can. I goes confusedly struggle being this position. Carrying a lot of thought that i couldn't ask anyone for advise. I just scared of ruining.

Of course ppl will think dat u r just thinking too muchh right there. Stop assuming n keep moving. Yaa huh. they don't know things any further. I'm claming for some words that can really cope me up. but i just couldn't tell. arghh. by right i admit dat but no matter how i persuade myself to. I can't stop to create those illusions. They don't look gracious at all. Its so unpredictable. bt they just keep appearing. How could i ever stopp them. hmmmmpp. Will it b any incoming day...

Stop worrying all the time. Pushing urself this hard will never b any better. Look things farer. Think wider. Don't stood right there n see things. Always stand at a different position. Its even better if u can always change ur place to stand. Thesee is wat i can tell myself right now. n go for a tactful Sunday before Monday comes!! Art is Rubbish is Art. Im comingggg!! :)

the good always die
everyone will meet their demise
the skies align
and eventually
so do the cries

-wordsbydominicriccitello-

Cry. End.

Aint ur victim.

2014. a late post for the Great beginning of the year. im now writing on a brand new blog of mine. its like a brand new page of this year. 2013 was a great year indeed. that i go through alottsss. n i swear i've regret for ntg. Every decision i've made. its bring me here. now. Im moving on. till now.

Its weird that this is just the first ever post. in this superrr blank blog. But we may not always stick to wat we have. NOW. even we has been so so so used to it. Things is mean to b change. Just like wat i want to bring it up for.

Many ppl might have a list of new year Resolutions. rite. Some might b longgg. like pages. Some may b just a few. bt with sincere one. I've really forgotten my last year resolutions so i couldnt find out whether or not. did i really made it or...because no ones noe wat future hold. so to me. i just let things b wat it wants to b. But if u really think of it. Its just so weird to have this thought. ==

CHANGE. who dowan to change. who want to stay forever without any step forward in their life. bet that there r someone. but not us. Lotts of thought that sometime enough to let me down. i admit im some kind of thinking too much type. But wat makes me. i really couldnt think of it. Let it go?! alrite. let it go then. stop dat self talking session. -.-

Do u ever find things that goes like this. u started hold on on somethings. when u gets more. it made u stubborn. made u worry. made ur life change dat much without any notice. u become like an addiction. a cruel addiction. Blame for too muchh expectation....i think its just not normal at all. at all. at all. crazyyy girl. To let it go. this is not an easy task like "take it easy". i wouldnt promise myself that i can made it. i wouldnt just let things b like this forever. i will just say. im no longer little girl. Things should end someday if its ruin ur life this muchh. Damn its a feeling that i never had. n better dont have.

Chill. again. feeling better after writing all down. stop that crazyy self talking session of me... Life goes on. rite.

The heart breaker whispers round
What you gonna do when they call you insane…

I aint ur victim. byeee!!